look at your life

There are times when I have a "look at your life" moment. These are the moments when something happens, or someone says something, or you feel something new and there's nothing you can do but look at your life... look at your life and ask questions, or wonder how you got here- where you're going... hold your life up to the light and uncover what it's really all about. One of my dearest friends from high school got married on Saturday. The past week seems like a whirlwind of events, laughs, dances, and recollections of memories of beautiful moments, milestones, and friends. And now my dear friend Rachel Scott is Rachel McGlaughlin. It's like she's this whole new person... she's a wife... and I have never seen her as happy as she was yesterday, her father walking her down the aisle toward the man who is now her husband. And I stood at the alter watching her walk toward him, I couldn't help but look at my life... look at my life and hope that one day, I could love someone that much- that someone could love me that much, and choose to share in this crazy, ridiculous thing together.

It's funny how things change as time passes. It's funny how they stay the same. It's been a long while since Rachel and I shared an extended period of time together, but nevertheless, I realized this weekend, as I always seem to realize with her, that some people never change...and some relationships just pick themselves up right where they left off... like no time has passed at all. And again, you look at your life and you wonder what it is that allows certain relationships to withstand the test of time while others seem to have no choice but to fall away... fall apart. What allows us to hold onto the people we love? What allows us to keep cultivating or nurturing relationships so that they may last? Better yet, how does the universe seem to come together in these "look at your life" moments offering you the chance to begin again... to begin something new, to start cultivating all over again, while in the midst of all those old relationships still keeping you alive...

I couldn't be happier for my dear friend. And I cannot wait to see how our relationship evolves as she starts this new chapter of her life. Even more so, I can't wait to see what the next "look at my life" moment will be...